Realization

Living here sheds a whole new light on the generational blessing / generational curse concept....

Tuned In

A friend of mine, Enriqueta, posted this reply to one of my posts recently. It couldn't be more true..I had to pass it on to you all and comment on her comment.

"There is something to the way you are living that gets you tuned in."

Yes, there is. It is hard to explain, and certainly isn't quantifiable. But it is this nagging feeling, maybe a nagging circumstance, possibly a nagging Presence.

"Getting tuned in". Yes, that's it. I'm getting very tuned in. Some of the tuning is external, but most has been internal. The Lord has radically, yet caringly, be in the business of "tuning me in" ever since I have arrived here. I have learned so many things about Him, about myself, about life, that frankly wasn't gonna happen at home..it's true.

I would love to go into full detail..but, you see some of this already in other posts, and I would have a hard time conveying exactly what is happening. I pray that He would continue to develop me into the man He desires me to be.

Becoming Fully Alive

The book "Waking the Dead" blew my mind. My friend, John, recommended it to me and it definitely changed my life. To be honest, I was kinda skeptical...I read "Wild at Heart" and to be brutally honest, hated it. I feel his ideas of gender roles were off (but, anyway)..."Waking the Dead" made me realize, along with many other things, the importance of the heart.

I loved the book and my life has slowly been changing ever since then...well, it was changing propositionally at least, until recently. I understood what the author was conveying intellectually, but I was still having a hard time using the knowledge practically...until now. God interfered. He stepped in. He said, "You still don't get it, but now I'm gonna show you..."

I feel like a rose emerging in the spring after a long, cold winter...except my winter lasted approximately 28 years. He has introduced me to a new way of living, or better yet, loving, that I sadly had never experienced before....a Christ-like love, a "put others before yourself" type love, a love that honors and cherishes, a love that seeks not its own, a love that encompasses the Incarnation.

My heart is becoming fully alive. Thank you so much Lord, I know its all you.....